An Internal Affair

So here you have it...my sum of what I think grief is...at least for me.For me, grief is a a fight within. An internal affair of what life was and what life is now becoming. I struggle within to let go of what was and of what I had and turn to what is and what I want. And I find that at least for me, fighting with myself is no longer necessary, no longer wanted. What I want is to reclaim ME. To reclaim JOY. And to reclaim LIFE. Not for my family, but for ME, because if I can't fix ME first, then I can't begin to help fix anyone else.So I say ode to the old ways, to the old life, to the old ME and welcome to the newly created ME and the blessings that await me each day. I can never forget my precious Bob. And I will certainly never stop loving him or appreciaiting him and the uniqueness that he gave me and our children, but today I take that first bold step to become what he wanted me to be.....STRONG, FAITHFILLED, INDEPENDANT and COURAGEOUS."Make new 'memories' but Keep the old...some are silver and others gold"